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MAGICAL MONDAY

The Eight of Wands from Dark Wood Tarot - by Sasha Graham

The Eight of Wands from Dark Wood Tarot - by Sasha Graham

Hi Friends! Yet another week upon us - Let’s start it out right by weaving a spell. Above is the Eight of Wands card from my most magical friend’s tarot deck - The Dark Wood Tarot! See below for the gorgeous tale that accompanies this delicious card. Have an excellent Monday.

Make some magic this week.

Find new ways to share your light, Holly xo

Magical Monday’s Tarot of the Week is the Eight of Wands. The Eight of Wands is about sending your intentions into the world. 

Once upon a time, a little girl named Ash was born into a world of fog and inky darkness. She lived in a dusty old root cellar. Her piercing black eyes had a cobweb crust and she traded secrets with spiders. She thought everyone lived in the same bleak, shadowy world as her.

One day, a bright, shiny girl walked by. The girl looked into the root cellar and yelled down, “Hay, wanna come play?”

“Sure!” said Ash as she scrambled up and out of the murky shadows.

They had a ball. The girl invited Ash to her home. The girl lived in an enchanted castle full of dappled sunlight, garden mazes, and soft furry creatures. Ash wiped the cobwebs from her eyes in amazement to be sure she was seeing straight. Her friend had a private treasure room filled with dazzling jewels. She also had a magic chest. The girl could wish for anything and chest would make it appear.

Ash walked home perplexed and confused.

“Why don’t I have what she has?” Ash wondered aloud as she clutched her rag doll and drifting to sleep to the sound of burrowing rats.

The next day, a little boy walked by the root cellar and yelled down, “Hay! Wanna to come to tea?”

“Sure!” said Ash as she scrambled up and out of the murky shadows.

Ash graciously accepted the warm, sweet tea from his mother. She smelled like the ginger spice cookies she spread on a plate for them to gobble up. Ash fell deeply into the mother’s soft, warm hugs and thanked them both for a lovely afternoon.

“Why don’t I have a mother like this?” Ash wondered aloud as she drifted to sleep to the chic chic chic of the rattle snake in the corner.

Ash’s own mother sat motionless like a statue. She hadn’t moved or spoke since Ash’s father climbed out of the cellar and never returned. Her skin was hard like stone and cold like ice with a melty stream of water at the outer corner of her eyes which stared blankly ahead.

The next day, Ash went walking further than she had ever been. She found a lush valley where the sun burst out, igniting everything with color. Orange and red trees blazed like flames, emerald fields glowed and marshmallow white clouds floated across the blue sky.

“Why are you so beautiful?” she yelled to the sky while throwing stones at it. “Why do I live with rats and snakes and you get all the color.”

“Who says there isn’t any beauty in darkness?” something answered back.

Was it the sky?

Was it the mountain?

Was it the field talking to her?

“Mt cellar has no color, no cookies, and no treasure. I’ve got nothing. Everyone else has everything they want.” She yelled back.

“Where do you think all this color and treasure comes from?” Asked the voice.

“I don’t know, “ said Ash indignantly, “You tell me if you are so smart.”

“It comes from the darkness,” said the voice. 

“Oh,” said Ash, not sure of what to make of this new information.

“But why can’t I have a sparkly house and a warm mother?” She asked.

“Because you can’t. Not right now. But don’t worry. Nothing is as permanent as it seems. Life could surprise you.”

“How?” She asked feeling hot and looking for another stone to throw.

“Speak your heart to the darkness, “said the voice. “Words are like seeds. Your words will sprout.”

“I doubt it,” grumbled Ash with a wrinkled, sour face.

“Sometimes, we don’t know what we want until others show us. Trust me,” said the voice.

Ash was old enough to know that trusting something or someone, even if it was a voice out of nowhere, was serious business. She knew it required something of her. She liked this feeling of responsibility. 

She retuned to the root cellar and began whispering to the darkness. But she only spoke when her words were true and her mind was clear. And she trusted.

Ash grew into a woman. She had managed to transform the land all around the root cellar into a thriving flower and vegetable farm. She’d planted so many trees, fruits, and flowers that it actually changed the weather pattern and sunny days were now the norm.

Ash had two beautiful children. The family took tea together every day. The children nibbled on spice cookies while snuggling into their mother’s soft hugs. 

Ash returned to the root cellar on a daily basis to place fresh bellflowers and sweet peas on the very spot where her mother had melted away. She loved moving from the damp darkness and into the warm sun.

She often found her children playing hide and seek in the root cellar and she always let them be. She knew everyone has to find their way through darkness, on their own terms and in their own time. And she knew that darkness was exactly the thing that lets all the world find its light. 

Best wishes,
Sasha Graham

www.sashagraham.com

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Above: Blippi, Live! What a magical and fun cast. I had so much fun in these auditions with the Round Room team. Hoping we’ll be able to get this one back up and running soon.

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HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!

Gypsy at the Engeman Theater - Mama Rose - the ultimate! (more photos below)

Gypsy at the Engeman Theater - Mama Rose - the ultimate! (more photos below)

Hi Friends! Happy Mother’s Day to one and all! Let us not forget that there are all KINDS of Mothers out there to be celebrated on this day - this is truly a day to celebrate all strong, loving women who have had a mothering and nurturing impact on our lives. That can be Mothers, Grandmothers, Sisters, Aunts, Teachers, Co-workers and even dear, dear Friends. Be grateful to all who have “mothered you” and brought you great love.

HAPPY HAPPY, Holly xo

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Gypsy at the Engeman Theater - An amazing production. #proud2bewojcikseay


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WARMTH!

Mel Miller and I at the old Theatre Row. Thinking about Mel and his dedication to Musicals Tonight and our industry all these years, fills me with warmth! (some more fun candid shots below)

Mel Miller and I at the old Theatre Row. Thinking about Mel and his dedication to Musicals Tonight and our industry all these years, fills me with warmth! (some more fun candid shots below)

Hi Friends! What IS this freezing May weather? WE NEED WARMTH!!!! Here are some images to help you conjure warmth on this cold Saturday…. Let’s combine our energy to push off this polar vortex. We deserve WARMTH!

Sending you my own warm fuzzies… Holly:)

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NEW NEW YORK

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Hi Friends! Last night I tuned into CNN’s weekly Coronavirus Q&A. They are doing a very good job of keeping us informed on this virus, given all of the conflicting information that is out there. But, mostly, I was excited to see the Spike Lee short film for New York City. I’ve always been a huge fan of Spike Lee and his brilliant films that truly delve into the spirit of our beautiful chaos of a city. Crooklyn is one of my favorites! I was hoping to be uplifted, inspired and revitalized by whatever he had compiled for us to view!

As his clips of an empty, ghost town NYC were viewed in slow motion, set Frank’s iconic anthem “New York, New York”, I had quite the opposite response. Where was my city? Where was that bustle - where were the crowds? I felt lost. Empty. Sad. At the end of the piece, he brought in some footage of our essential workers, which helped boost the spirit a little, but then it was over and there I sat in devastation and tears.

The cameras then re-focused on our hosts - Anderson, Sanjay and Spike Lee himself. There was a pause and a usually bright-faced Sanjay asked the question, “What did you intend the audience to feel or experience with that movie?” (I’m sure I’m paraphrasing…) Spike responded something to the effect of, “It’s up to the audience to interpret and feel.”

I suppose sometimes art needs to smack you in the face with the truth - cut you straight to the core.

I applaud Spike for presenting things how they are - for documenting our collective loss. I think in seeing and experiencing it, it has allowed me to mourn and also helped me come to terms with the fact that our brilliant, beautiful and vibrant city is changing. It has changed before and will continue to change and grow, as we all do. It’s going to be hard, but maybe we can rebuild in a better more community affirming way? Maybe this is just a tearing down to get to a better place? Even Spike Lee mentioned that he believed after we recover from the impact of the virus we need to, as a city and a country, “Change things from top to bottom” -

Here’s the full, direct quote:

“I think that after we get into AC – after corona – we have to change things top to bottom. We cannot go back to doing this stuff that happened before — healthcare, education, the environment. We got to just, hopefully with the new president, that we got to go back to the chalkboard and just really rethink everything in America from top to bottom.”

Recently, this article about an ever changing NYC spoke to me:

https://gen.medium.com/the-new-york-you-once-knew-is-gone-the-one-you-loved-remains-2dbd68ca0eae

Today, I’m doing a little meditating on what my part in the NEW New York could look like - how will I contribute to this city in a new way? I’m not sure yet, but it’s going to be exciting to be a part of the change.

Oh, New York…you beautiful, gorgeous mess - we will not disappoint you!

xo Holly

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From “Here Is New York” by E.B. White (written in the summer of 1948 about a decidedly different, but same New York):

“A block or two west of the new City of Man in Turtle Bay there is an old willow tree that presides over an interior garden. It is a battered tree, long suffering and not much climbed, held together by strands of wire but beloved of those who know it. In a way it symbolizes the city: life under difficulties, growth against odds, surprise in the midst of concrete, and the steady reaching for the sun. Whenever I look at it nowadays, and feel the cold shadow of the planes, I think: “This must be saved, this particular thing, this very tree.” If it were to go, all would go - this city, this mischievous and marvelous monument which not to look upon would be like death.”




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THURSDAY?

Site-specific Spoon River Anthology at Greenwood Cemetery. I worked on this years ago. I wish I had gotten to see it, because it looked so cool. Fun project! (More photos below)

Site-specific Spoon River Anthology at Greenwood Cemetery. I worked on this years ago. I wish I had gotten to see it, because it looked so cool. Fun project! (More photos below)

Hi Friends! I woke up this morning and asked my boyfriend, “It’s Thursday - right?” To which he replied, “Yes - It’s almost the weekend.” After a pause, we then both broke into hysterical laughter. The weekend - The WEEKEND?!? It seems all time has lost it’s meaning for us in Brooklyn. When I really think about the, now, TWO MONTHS of quarantine we’ve endured, I’m completely mystified. The days are long, but the weeks go by fast and though I feel like I’m accomplishing things on a personal level, there really isn’t anything to accomplish…or at least it seems that way.

After the reassurance that it is Thursday, I started to spiral a little in my brain - thinking about the past two months of nothingness and the two months before that of ALL the work for nothingness - then thinking about how unsure the future really is right now - where will we all be two months from now?!?! It was a LOT.

Mindfulness - staying in the moment - in the here and now has saved me many times and today I was reminded of this. I even did a little meditation today. If you are spiraling, take a bunch of deep breaths and take the time to observe the world all around you - in the moment. I promise it helps.

But it is Thursday - right? Holly xo

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You could also give up and just eat a cookie - this helps too!

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RESISTING?

Til Divorce Do Us Part - An off-broadway cabaret show based on one woman’s divorce story and her rediscovery of herself - it was the creative project that sprung from her own transformation. She was very inspirational.  I worked on this in Joy Dewin…

Til Divorce Do Us Part - An off-broadway cabaret show based on one woman’s divorce story and her rediscovery of herself - it was the creative project that sprung from her own transformation. She was very inspirational. I worked on this in Joy Dewing’s office. More photos below…

Hi Friends! I’m thinking about you all and wondering how you are doing? As this quarantine continues for what feels like an eternity, I’m realizing now that I resisted this so hard in the beginning - the acceptance that the entire world hit a transformation stage at the same time and in high acceleration. I tried for weeks to convince myself that there would be a “going back to normal” a “reset to everyday life” and it wasn’t until I really accepted that there is no going back that I felt myself again. Once I had the courage to face that acceptance, I began to live, discover and dream within my own little confines - dream of what might be coming next. This new energy set me free.

I suppose I’m wondering where you are in this journey? Are you still resisting? It’s ok, if that’s what you need to get through this, but I urge you to let go when the time is right.

I was listening to one of my old favorites, Ani DiFranco, on my run the other day. One of her songs, Buildings & Bridges, popped on while I was running…these lyrics really struck me in a new way:

“Buildings and bridges
Are made to bend in the wind
To withstand the world
That's what it takes
All that steel and stone
Are no match for the air, my friend
What doesn't bend breaks
What doesn't bend breaks”

Our world is different - it’s changed. Transformation is sometimes slow and we don’t notice it. But, this time it was hard, fast and pretty brutal. It’s ok, though. We are going to be ok. Just bend, Friends! Just bend…

Sending you light and love on this grey Wednesday, Holly xo

PS. If you’d like to hear the full song…it’s below.

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FINANCES

The upper-crust in FOR GOODNESS SAKE with Musicals Tonight! An excellent and refined cast! Loved them. More pictures below!

The upper-crust in FOR GOODNESS SAKE with Musicals Tonight! An excellent and refined cast! Loved them. More pictures below!

Hi Friends! Today I finally sat down and put together my monthly budget - both pre-quarantine and during-quarantine, so I could compare. This was an EDUCATION! I am a person who would consider myself careful with money. Until I looked at these suckers side-by-side. Holy cow - the things I spent money on pre-quarantine that were totally UNnecessary were staring me in the face. Wow- just wow.

But, now I’m super glad I conquered my fear and pulled together enough motivation to get it all in that revealing spreadsheet. I have a plan now for cutting expenses as I move forward!

I know it’s scary, but a side-by-side comparison will bring you so much clarity and this seems like the perfect time to sit down and examine all of your financial habits, so that when we are released you can head back into the working world with a better sense of personal financial responsibility.

Here are some fun resources for you to explore:

https://actorsfund.org/services-and-programs/finances-managing-money

I’m sure you all know her already, but if not, Stefanie is a GENIUS with artist finances and budgeting: https://stefanieoconnell.com

https://www.gyst-ink.com/budgets

And a tip from me: do NOT despair - just get the numbers on the page. True wealth is not determined by dollars. Abundance can be achieved within the tightest of budgets.

xo Holly

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MAGICAL MONDAY

The Hanged Man Card - Dark Wood Tarot by Sasha Graham.

The Hanged Man Card - Dark Wood Tarot by Sasha Graham.

Hi Friends! I can’t believe it’s yet another Monday! Time to start the week right with a little magic… Above is the Hanged Man Card from my friend’s amazing new deck. If you are a reader or always wanted to be one, you should check out this deck (in her signature below, there’s a link to order, if you are interested). Here’s the message from Sasha regarding this week’s card. Also, because I know her very very well, I know that there is deep, beautiful and personal truth to this story below. You can manifest the things you most desire in this life - and you have plenty of time now to start ruminating on it all… Go inward to find the magic all around you!

xo Holly

From Sasha:

The Hanged Man is all about a shift in your perspective.

Look deeper and you can change your life.

Don’t believe me?

Have a listen to this very true story ...

Once upon a time a girl wanted to travel the world but didn't have the money.  She dreamed of riding camels through red deserts and of floating in ancient seas. Her eyes craved holy temples, her feet wanted to walk alongside red robed monks and her lungs craved crispy Himalayan air. She wanted to get lost in Paris and nibble cheese on a train as it flew through through the Italian Alps. Most of all, her heart craved a love that had been lost and buried in time. 

She moved through daily life with these quantum longings tugging beneath her skin. They made her itchy and uncomfortable. One lazy summer afternoon, tired of scratching at her raw skin, she fell into a strange vision while gazing at a tree.

“Dear child,” said the tree. “Why so glum?”

“I want more than this old backyard,” replied the girl with a scowl on her face. “I want to walk barefoot in sea foam. I want exotic foods. I want to see something new. I want get on an airplane and fly away!”

The wise old tree chuckled so hard, its crispy brown leaves fell like confetti around the girl.

“Why are you laughing?” Asked the girl.

“Child, haven’t you noticed? Everything repeats. Every single thing you desire is already in this yard,” said the tree.

“That’s impossible!” She replied.

“Is it?” Asked the tree with a knowing smile. “Start looking. Deeply”

A ringing telephone woke her from her dreamy state but the conversation stayed with her. She began looking for the very things she craved. An enticing new world unfolded before her.

She realized the sky looked like the ocean, especially at sunrise and sunset when it turned all the colors of a coral reef. The clouds stacked up so high they looked like floating mountain ranges.

She learned to make thick sweet European coffee and found exotic recipes and spices to create the smells and tastes of India and Nepal in her kitchen. The winter snow piled up like sand dunes around her house and the summer sun grew wild flowers and spikey Mediterranean herbs.

She visited the bark of an old willow tree everyday that looked and felt just like elephant skin. She was so busy looking deeper and discovering new things she hadn't seen before that she didn’t even notice the airline ticket when it appeared in her mailbox.

 A few months later, she was wide awake and alert while sitting in predawn light the base of Mount Everest. The highest peak in the world was a quiet shadow looming before her. She became acquainted with the mountain. The two of them began to swapping secrets like old friends. She noticed three bright stars and laughed to herself just as the old tree had chuckled. Yes, of course, she thought. There is Orion’s Belt next to Everest. Just as it looks back home. 

Best wishes,

Sasha Graham
www.sashagraham.com

Pre-order The Dark Wood Tarot: https://www.amazon.com/Dark-Wood-Tarot-Sasha-Graham/dp/0738759309

Latest book: Llewellyn's Complete Book of the Rider-Waite-Smith Tarot: A Journey Through the History Meaning and Use of the World's Most Famous Deck

Below a video from Tuacahn’s production of Prince Of Egypt. Two summers ago I was so grateful to be sent out there by Scott and Gayle to see this, plus others in the season. Tuacahn is a magical place and this production was stunning. I will never forget it. #proud2bewojcikseay #grateful

THE PRINCE OF EGYPT JULY 13 - OCT 20 Tuacahn Amphitheatre 1100 Tuacahn Dr, Ivins, UT 84738 Box Office: (800) 746-9882 From the Tony & Academy award-winning c...

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SACRED SPACE

The Klezmer Nutcracker at Vital Theatre. Gorgeous and sacred re-telling of the Nutcracker. This was a beautiful production and an excellent cast. More pictures below!

The Klezmer Nutcracker at Vital Theatre. Gorgeous and sacred re-telling of the Nutcracker. This was a beautiful production and an excellent cast. More pictures below!

Hi Friends! Theatre is a sacred space. When I used to perform, I remember always arriving early to the theatre to spend time on the stage, breathing in the energy of physical space before even getting into costume and makeup. I felt a need mentally share my gratitude to all those that had been on the stage before me.

When you walk into a theatre - onstage or off, it can feel like walking into a church or temple. There’s an energy there - the energy of past performances, past audiences and shared experiences. That energy exists even when the only light in the theatre is the dim glow of the ghost light. That energy feeds and compels your performance and your soul.

So, it can feel depleting to be away from that. I feel the absence of shared experience deep in my bones and I long to walk back into an audience - hear the hum of the anticipatory conversations as people flip through their programs, the music of the orchestra as they warm up and the quickening of my own heart as the lights dim.

I’ve decided to create my own “Sacred Space” at home. It’s not going to have the same magic as the magic of a theatre, but a new kind - that of my own making. I’ve carved out a corner of my apartment - close to the record player and just close enough to the window, so I can look out and see the street below. I’ve surrounded this spot with books that inspire me and candles that sooth me and I’m allowing myself to just be here some of my day and feel gratitude….and magic. I am writing this blog from my space right now hoping you will somehow feel that energy I’ve been striving to create.

It’s been really lovely in my little corner. “In my own little corner” hahahahah. I’ve mentioned before that this time is a great time for artists and industry professionals alike to “go inward” and I still believe this. We can’t “go outward” right now, unless we are doing it virtually. So, maybe you need a “Sacred Space” at home - a space that will allow you to ruminate and take that journey way down to the deep and exciting parts of your soul!

Have a delightful Sunday,

Holly xo


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COUCH

Bittersweet at Bard Summerscape!

Bittersweet at Bard Summerscape!

Hi Friends! Ugh - today I just cannot get off the couch. Seriously, on the most beautiful day of the Spring so far, the sun I’ve been longing for is beaming down and I’ve sat like a grouch face on the couch. No energy. No motivation. I’m a mess.

I am practicing accepting that I might need to do this sometimes and be ok with it, as we all need to be gentle with ourselves during quarantine. BUT, enough is enough today. Here’s an aggressive, motivational video that inspired me to get off the couch and DO SOMETHING! Enjoy…

Be a boss bitch,

Holly xo

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POETRY

Much Ado About Nothing at The Secret Theatre. I LOVE classical work, especially Shakespeare! I had the great pleasure of working on the casting of this show plus a few other Shakespeare productions for The Secret Theatre alongside one of my favorite…

Much Ado About Nothing at The Secret Theatre. I LOVE classical work, especially Shakespeare! I had the great pleasure of working on the casting of this show plus a few other Shakespeare productions for The Secret Theatre alongside one of my favorite actor/directors, Alberto Bonilla (seen above as Benedict). More photos below….

Hi Friends! I truly forgot how much I love poetry and language. The other day, in the midst of a gray rainstorm, I lit a candle and pulled all of the poetry books off my bookshelf - I found a cozy corner by the window and just indulged in words. I even revisited my NYU assigned copy of “Letters To A Young Poet” and there was almost immediately a quote that jumped off the page and spoke to me… “For the creative artist there is no poverty - nothing is insignificant or unimportant”.

I then dissolved into words of Neruda, Seamus Haney, Siri Hustvedt and others… It was divine.

If you are feeling bored or listless, indulge in the juiciness of poetry - it won’t disappoint!

Next stop Shakespeare - Oh, how I’ve missed Will.

Any poets you would recommend I explore? Email me - holly@hdbcasting.com

Happy Friday - Holly xo


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DOMESTIC SURPRISES

Chefs, A Sizzling Kitchen Showdown! Mills Entertainment. One of the most ridiculously hysterical, but incredibly delightful audition experiences I have had! These guys were so funny and so hot. They nailed it. (scroll below for a video of these tale…

Chefs, A Sizzling Kitchen Showdown! Mills Entertainment. One of the most ridiculously hysterical, but incredibly delightful audition experiences I have had! These guys were so funny and so hot. They nailed it. (scroll below for a video of these talented gentlemen).

Hi Friends! I’ve always been a gal that refused to participate in activities that would suggest, even in the slightest, that I was domestic. It was never a goal of mine to be anything close to what I considered a “housewife”. And, let’s be honest - working in NYC - who has time for that anyway?!?!

Needless to say, my cooking skills were always sorely lacking. Even though I’ve worked in all levels of restaurants throughout my life and I have a great respect for the many talented chefs I’ve met along the way - you could not get me in my kitchen. My block was a bias… a made up idea in my mind of what it meant to cook - what was WRONG with me?!?

During this quarantine I’ve embraced my inner “housewife” - cooking, cleaning, maintaining, reorganizing and it’s been…..FUN. Last night I made a Steak au Poivre with truffled green beans. WHAT?!? Delicious! I also recently re-organized my entire kitchen, including assembling an expertly labeled spice rack which holds 30 spices, so that the kitchen would be more functional for my use. LMAO

There are small ways of stepping out of your comfort zone yet to be discovered! I’m proud that I have pushed past this nonsensical bias to discover just how much I love working in the kitchen.

Yesterday, I saw this article below posted on Alison Mahoney’s wall. She was featured in the New York Post discussing this very phenomenon. It made me laugh so hard, but also, it was fun to see that I wasn’t alone. Way to go, Alison!

Anyway, embrace your inner “housewife” because we don’t have the naked chefs of Sizzling Kitchen Showdown to cook and dance in our kitchen each night (pity). *see video below - enjoy!

Happy Cooking, Holly

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New footage from CHEFS: The Sizzling Kitchen Showdown, which you can see at Dominion Energy Center on March 11, 2018! Tickets at http://bit.ly/TheChefsTourRV...

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DEEPER

The Independents - Fringe Festival 2012. One of the projects I’ve worked on that I am most proud of. Loved this cast and was deeply grateful to have had the opportunity to collaborate with this team.

The Independents - Fringe Festival 2012. One of the projects I’ve worked on that I am most proud of. Loved this cast and was deeply grateful to have had the opportunity to collaborate with this team.

Hi Friends! Above is a picture from a Fringe Show (2012) that I had the supreme pleasure of working on. When people ask, what was your favorite project to have ever been involved with, I almost always say this - Independents - Fringe 2012. This piece was beautifully written by a group of friends who had recently graduated from Yale. It was a folk-rock musical about a rag-tag collection of 20 something friends, who had been living together on a Revolutionary War Reenactment Ship (which was actually a drug smuggling boat), who were trying to find their way back out into the world. Sounds weird - huh? At the heart of this show, the audience experiences a group of young, lost souls acknowledge and accept that it is time for them to grow up and move on. It was both funny and endearing, illuminating a moment in time that all of us must face or have faced at some point in our lives. It spoke to everyone.

Anyway, I was incredibly lucky to have connected with the team. I just ADORED the material and I was working hard at scheduling actors and pulling sides etc….when I got the news that the lead writer of the piece, Marina Keegan, had been in a fatal car crash. I hadn’t met anyone from the team yet in person- I had only corresponded with them via email and phone. In two week’s time they were coming into the city for the auditions. I was at a complete loss for what to do.

One of the other team members, Charlie, reached out to me about a week later to let me know that they had decided to go forward with the production because they all felt it was important for her words to be heard and her work to be felt and experienced by an audience. I agreed, but suddenly my job had taken on a whole new meaning - I was a little terrified. I had to make sure the people I brought to the table would be the strongest candidates to honor her work. I had a responsibility to her words as much as they did.

Ah! But, there’s the life lesson - I ALWAYS had that responsibility. As support to a creative process - don’t we all? This experience forced me to go deeper - to really examine myself and my career. It changed me.

Being in the casting room with this team was a revelation. I was lucky to be surrounded by such talent and I worked my butt off to bring them the cast that would honor the work they had done and the work Marina had done. But, it was also difficult - sacred, tender, raw. I will never forget those few days and the moving work that all of the performers brought to the table.

The show was riveting and it was a hit. I’ve always wondered why didn’t this life affirming project advance? To this day, I have dreams of re-connecting with that team and producing it - finding a way to move it forward so more people can have the experience of those rag-tag friends as they sail into new territory and find themselves.

I guess all of this is just to say - GO DEEPER. Now’s your chance to really dive into your heart and explore. You have time. Yes, it’s not limitless joyful time, but it’s yours.

On the eve of her commencement, Marina Keegan wrote in a virul column for her fellow students:

“We’re so young. We’re so young. We’re twenty-two years old. We have so much time,” she said. “There’s this sentiment I sometimes sense, creeping in our collective conscious as we lay alone after a party, or pack up our books when we give in and go out – that it is somehow too late. That others are somehow ahead. More accomplished, more specialized. More on the path to somehow saving the world, somehow creating or inventing or improving. That it’s too late now to BEGIN a beginning and we must settle for continuance, for commencement.

What we have to remember is that we can still do anything. We can change our minds. We can start over,” she said. “Get a post-back or try writing for the first time. The notion that it’s too late to do anything is comical. It’s hilarious. We’re graduating college. We’re so young. We can’t, we MUST not lose this sense of possibility because in the end, it’s all we have.”

I never knew her, but I am eternally grateful to have known her work. She taught me an invaluable lesson by allowing me to contribute to her show in a very small way.

GO DEEPER, Hollyxo

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EXPLORE

The Butterfly Girl - aka Velma Gratch and the Way Cool Butterfly at Vital Theatre. Velma was awesome at exploring and learning new things! This cast rocked - this is the scene where the class goes to the Butterfly Conservatory.

The Butterfly Girl - aka Velma Gratch and the Way Cool Butterfly at Vital Theatre. Velma was awesome at exploring and learning new things! This cast rocked - this is the scene where the class goes to the Butterfly Conservatory.

Hi Friends! Today is a beautiful day to EXPLORE (with a face mask, hand sanitizer and staying 6 feet away from others). It may seem like you are restricted, but there is a lot to discover, even in quarantine!

I have been taking long walks all through Brooklyn - my neighborhood and surrounding neighborhoods and just last week I decided to take my walking trips to the next level. Somewhere along the way, someone had gifted my boyfriend and I a “Self Guided Walking Tours of Brooklyn” book. It’s been staring at me from my bookshelf for years. And last week, it called to me… I found a guided tour of Prospect Park and I set out on an excursion. Even though I had to wear the mask, refrain from touching things and stay away from people, it was completely restorative. Seeing parts of the park I didn’t know existed delighted me. Nature was everywhere. And, because I was distancing from people, I got to focus and absorb this all on a really personal level. It was healing. (pictures below)

So…there ARE things to be explored beyond your four walls. You must be careful (mask, sanitizer & distance), but I think you may find you discover the city in a whole different way. I was astounded at how much I had been missing out on.

xo Holly

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MAGICAL MONDAY

The Magician Card from Sasha Graham’s Dark Wood Tarot Deck!

The Magician Card from Sasha Graham’s Dark Wood Tarot Deck!

Hi, my magical friends! Last night The Sondheim 90th Birthday Celebration was, indeed, quite magical. Ok, it got off to a rough start, but once they got it back on track - those performances wove a spell. For me the most magical moment was Chip Zien’s performance of “No More”. I needed that so much for my heart and he delivered! What moments were most magical for you to watch?!?

But, I have been so excited for the next Tarot Card to be drawn by my dear friend, Sasha Graham, to guide us into the next week of quarantine and beyond. You will find the card above - the Magician! Here’s a message from Sasha about the card:

Have you ever desired “star power? The Magician stands with her wand pointing towards the heavens. She channels universal energy and directs it to the earth with her pointed finger. She knows we are all lighting conduits. Our “magic wand” is our focus point. What we focus on, we make real. Our body is like a flesh and bone movie camera while our awareness is the director of photography. When was the last time you widened focus? 

Can you see yourself reflected in the Magician of the Dark Wood Tarot? She is an ancient, wise crone. A sorceress with mastery over all things. However, the secret we witches all know is that the most important thing the witch has mastery over is herself. Magic isn’t about controlling or manipulating other people or events. An evil, spell-casting, demonic woman aligns perfectly for those who want to villainize female essence and agency - whether tying them to a stake and burning them to death or promoting girl on girl hate. In truth, epic magic stems from knowing yourself, observing your own nature, and moving in alignment inside of the truth of who you are. It unleashes a mind-blowing magic.

The saying, “As above, so below,” is inscribed upon her table because what  is true for you, is true for the world. What is true for the world, is true for you. How can this be? Because you are a spiral galaxy unto yourself. You are a blazing sun who chooses what orbits around you. This is why if you want to change the world and make a difference, the first place to begin is to change yourself. 

“Sure,” you say, “change is easy when you have everything you need.” The Magician displays the four suits of tarot on her table, reflecting the classical elements, earth, air, fire, and water. They are there to let you know that you already HAVE everything you need. Life never gives you something you aren’t ready for.

Not up to accepting your current challenge? Fear not! It will keep showing up like a Halloween trick-or-treater in a different costume, again and again, until you change the behavior that was never truly yours to begin with (insert that distant guy you keep falling for, your familiar power struggle, the victim cycle, the repression of who you deeply are, etc.) and evolve as a human being.

The owl who sits above the Magician is wise because she doesn’t question who she is. She doesn’t compare herself to the other owls. She doesn’t second guess her hunting ability. She tastes her success when she’s feasting on the warm blood of a field mouse. The owl ~ and everything in nature ~ simply is. That’s what makes is magic. 

An essential piece of magical work is letting go of what your end goal “should” look like. Do you know how many people have missed the quantum entanglement staring them right in the face because it didn’t appear as a dark haired, six foot two, venture capitalist they always dreamed of? You have to leave an open door to the invisible force that is conspiring alongside you. You do your work and let the (insert your preferred name for that which many call the universe, creative principal, etc.) do its work. Trust me, it will.  The best part? The results are often more exciting and exhilarating than anything you could have imagined.

Netfix’s new show, “The Midnight Gospel,” (link: https://www.forbes.com/sites/dbloom/2020/04/24/the-midnight-gospel-duncan-trussell-pendleton-ward-netflix-animation/#27a03dae564f) does a brilliant job of describing mindfulness in its premiere episode. Save yourself the money for the buddhist retreat workshop you were going to attend next year and watch the pilot episode.

Once you engage in mindfulness, you can add magic by casting spells, setting intentions, all while focusing in the present moment. Take responsibility for yourself while infusing “doing” with “being.” Trust me, this is the wickedest, wildest magic there is. And a year from now, you’ll barely recognize who you used to be. 

Best wishes,
Sasha Graham
www.sashagraham.com

Pre-order The Dark Wood Tarot:https://www.amazon.com/Dark-Wood-Tarot-Sasha-Graham/dp/0738759309

Latest book: Llewellyn's Complete Book of the Rider-Waite-Smith Tarot: A Journey Through the History Meaning and Use of the World's Most Famous Deck

Let’s face it, Sondheim is the magical wizard of Musical Theatre - no other composer/lyricist has so accurately and openly depicted humanity with such understanding and raw intelligence. He himself is a magician! And last night was just re-affirming the magic we all weave in our community - Broadway and the Arts will return stronger than ever.

Keep casting spells, Holly xo


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SHINE

Hairspray at Theatre Aspen. My one and only time to work on this show was with Wojcik/Seay Casting as an associate. So much fun. I absolutely love this show. Hoping I’ll get another chance to work on casting it….somewhere! #proud2bewojcikseay

Hairspray at Theatre Aspen. My one and only time to work on this show was with Wojcik/Seay Casting as an associate. So much fun. I absolutely love this show. Hoping I’ll get another chance to work on casting it….somewhere! #proud2bewojcikseay

Hi Friends! Hairspray is on TV today and I definitely let myself get sucked in. It’s such a great show and the character of Tracy is one of my favorites - she is absolutely NOT afraid to be 100% who she is and the heart of who she is just shines. She’s optimistic, joyful, caring, kind, smart and doesn’t give in to the pressures around her or give up on being herself.

Watching this started to make me think about all the times throughout my life that people said to me that I wouldn’t succeed because I was “too nice”. Or that I should “grow a thicker skin” if I wanted to make it or have people take me seriously. For a moment in my life, I listened to them. I tried so hard to become something that I wasn’t for fear that I would never advance. What?!?

Everyone has different strengths and no one should be squished into a small box of what society thinks “works”. Truthfully, I don’t think my life took the right direction until I realized and accepted that my strengths lie in my sensitivities and that who I am may not be for everyone else, but it sure as hell works best for me. Kindness and thoughtfulness are fierce and a natural aptitude for human understanding can take you a very long way. Sometimes, I may trip up, but I will always strive for these things and I will never apologize.

Anyway, watching Tracy today made me think of this and feel deeply grateful to have retained the core of who I am throughout the years. Even now, I sometimes still get a laugh or a look for being a little bit “Pollyanna”, but I just shrug it off - that’s on THEM. I know we don’t know what direction the world will be taking over the next few months or even years at this point, but I urge you - do NOT lose sight of who you are. Do NOT let anyone strip away your own personal shine.

Shine on, my friends…shine on!

Holly xo

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More Theatre Aspen Hairspray pics below - I really wish I had gotten the chance to see this show. I had so much fun working on it with Gayle and Scott. I have nothing but gratitude for all of the projects at Wojcik/Seay that I have had the great privilege to work on.

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A HAPPY FACE

Smile! with Musicals Tonight. Loved this cast so much - more pics below…

Smile! with Musicals Tonight. Loved this cast so much - more pics below…

Hi Friends! I remember I used to love watching this television show, “Ally McBeal”. I know this dates me severely, but who cares! On the show, one of the characters who was particularly neurotic (played incredibly by Peter MacNicol), practiced something called “Smile Therapy”, where he would literally force a smile when he felt panic to change his mood. As you may guess, this made for some pretty hilarious moments on the show. He even had an actual “smile therapist” as I recall.

It sounds pretty insane, but getting yourself to smile, even when you feel pretty horrendous - just the physical shift of it in your body, makes you feel better! I found this quote online from someone (who is clearly awesome) named Erin Kelley:

“Putting your smile muscles to work during times of stress changes your outlook for a couple of reasons. First, the brain interprets this muscle movement to mean that you’re happy or contented. Even holding a pencil horizontally between your teeth is enough to approximate a smile, as far as your brain is concerned.

Second, your mood and perceptions of neutral events grow more positive simply from “acting” happy. Happy behavior isn’t likely to erase the trauma of a crisis, but it will encourage you to view mundane events from a more generous perspective. Besides these advantages, the sheer absurdity of smiling in moments of duress breaks the problem-centered mindset of anxiety and anger.”

Cool!

Here’s another fascinating article about it:

https://www.mindingtherapy.com/do-yourself-happy/

I like the idea of being able to “Do Yourself Happy” at a time like this. Social Distancing really takes a toll - doesn’t it? It’s a little bit like a rollercoaster ride of emotions, but when you are down…you are DOWN. Also, incredibly frustrating to not be able to do that much about it, being confined to your apartment or home. If you feel like you are falling back into that slump of hopelessness - turn on some happy music and force a happy dance - or just smile like a freak alone in your apartment. Why not - worth a try!

Sometimes, I just look at my boyfriend out of the blue with a ridiculous large “Chesire Cat” grin. He usually rolls his eyes and says “WHAT are you doing?!?!” - but even his response makes me laugh. Hahahahahaha.

Anyway, keep smiling! xo Holly

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COPE

Awesome Allie - First Kid Astronaut! - Vital Theatre Company. Fun show. Great cast. Excellent creative team! (More pics below)

Awesome Allie - First Kid Astronaut! - Vital Theatre Company. Fun show. Great cast. Excellent creative team! (More pics below)

Hi Friends! Sometimes it’s just hard to cope. Here are some ideas to help, if you find it difficult. Also, never forget that we are all in this together and if you need someone to talk to, I am available!

On fridays I cope with vodka, Holly:)

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NEW YORK STRONG

Rent National Tour - Most recent cast was LIT! #proud2bewojcikseay (more photos below!)

Rent National Tour - Most recent cast was LIT! #proud2bewojcikseay (more photos below!)

Hi Friends! I went crazy in my kitchen today - went a reorganization frenzy. As I was doing this I thought, you know what would make this more fun - blasting the original cast recording of RENT. So I did. And, wow, this brought back a lot of memories.

I was a sophomore at NYU and living in the East Village when Rent hit the scene. I saw the closing performance at the New York Theatre Workshop and it blew my mind. It literally became the soundtrack of my generation. Listening to it today brought me back to my tiny studio apartment, which I shared with 2 people, on Avenue A and 2nd St and all of the excitement of being young, mischievous and eager.

But it also brought me back to another New York. I was still in this apartment for 9/11 - my roommate and I had a clear view of the towers from the roof. And then another New York - a move to Stuytown and a city wide black out. And then another New York - Astoria and Hurricane Sandy. Side note: I actually had my appendix out at Mt. Sinai in the middle of the hurricane and am forever grateful for that amazing staff - still risking their lives today to get to work and save the lives of others.

Being in New York directly following 9/11 was one of the most life affirming and incredible experiences of my life. I learned so much about the person I was and the person I would like to become from taking in the people of New York all around me. Over the phone, mom begged me to “come home” and I remember responding, “This is my home”.

There have been so many hard times that we have faced as New Yorkers in just the past 30 years. Every single time, New Yorkers rise to accept the challenge with open hearts and determination. It’s totally inspiring. When you hear that applause at 7pm, when you see a post about your dear friend that is making thousands of masks, when you read about that Medical Professional going the extra mile to save lives….Take it all in - this is the beauty of humanity you find in the darkness. This is New York.

xo Holly



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DID YOU FORGET ABOUT YOURSELF?

Above and Below - My favorite mice - Angelina Ballerina at Vital Theater - Both the holiday show and the original. I loved casting this. I love Vital Theatre and all the good they do for families. I am hoping upon hope that they will be able to cont…

Above and Below - My favorite mice - Angelina Ballerina at Vital Theater - Both the holiday show and the original. I loved casting this. I love Vital Theatre and all the good they do for families. I am hoping upon hope that they will be able to continue after the quarantine has lifted!

Hi Friends! Recently I saw online that Angelina Ballerina (the current production) has been cancelled for the remainder of the season. It broke my heart a little to hear the news.

But so many of you have lost jobs to this unfortunate pandemic and while we all know this is for the greater good, you have every right to feel that loss and to feel disappointed and angry that the work you’ve put in or were excited to put in, will not be seen or experienced.

Do not think you are alone in this. I can tell you that the majority of the shows I worked on casting over the last few months of busy audition season are not happening. What a complete and total heartbreak. Not to mention, the extreme disappointment in the realization that the past few months have been an effort in futility.

With no end in sight to this quarantine and the scary realization that even when we are released, a return to live events and gatherings will be slow to come, it’s easy to succumb to a kind of pointlessness and lethargy. And, maybe you need to do that for a little while to soak it all in. But, you weren’t pointless before that job offer or all of those auditions you went on. You weren’t pointless before you even decided you wanted to be a part of this industry. You were always a fully realized human with depth and many layers.

So, my question to you - what are those other layers? Are there pieces of who you are that are vital to the world and your own psyche that you simply forgot about? Maybe you’ll surprise yourself when you rediscover that “other side” of who you are.

I’m working on it for myself… I’ll let you know what I find out.

Our industry will be back and I believe it will come back stronger than ever, but this might take some real time. Time for us all to go a bit inward and bring out all of those colors we forgot we had inside.

Sending you all love to heal and remember, Holly:)


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